Introspection

                          ♥️INTROSPECTION 

Freezing everything 

That affects our daily lives

And going deep within our souls

To find corners that need care 

And return our balance

To face life yet again. #lifehacks #balance #mindfulness #soul #face #healing #poem #poetry #photography #poetrycommunity #frommyhearttoyours #rouchi6

Strength

STRENGTH 

A blazing fire within 

That’s ignited by the will

To fight adversities in life and 

Look at critics in the eye 

Unafraid and undeterred 

Fight like a warrior princess 

With power inexhaustible. 

#strength #warrior #fight #nevergiveup #power #fire #tough #womanpower #poem #poetry #poetrycommunity #eye #photography #frommyhearttoyours #rouchi6

Clean the mess

 Zentangle has been quite an exciting journey. I love it’s intricacy and contrast. End product is clean and beautiful.  It has an ability to hide the flaws of even give them another dimension. With my severe tendinitis in my hand, I found it challenging but decided to push my limit as I was in a safe and comfortable zone where the concept was not to compete but to find your space of calm and healing. Finding this group of women tribe was meditative. Each one shared their flaws, challenges and art forms. Sona was always encouraging and gave us ideas when we were in a spot. Her teaching is such that you want to do well without fear. All the other tiles went well but the last one challenged me emotionally. As I drew the 4 sided forms and then the lines inside, I felt the inner struggle of many things that I am going through. As I started on the 2nd color the struggle was real. The more I tried to clean up, the more messy it looked. I felt frustrated and very agitated. I looked at that web and started again. I felt the fight of emotions. Wasn’t that like relationships? The more you try to withdraw, the more you are dragged, challenged and pushed. The more you compromise, the more your buttons are pressed. I felt breathless as I fervently tried to clean it up to keep both colors and designs clean. But I realized it was just me trying to clean my green, the blue was adamant and stayed there. I gave up, frustrated. It was the fight of the Titans. I left it there and walked away, like I always do in conflicts. It’s the only way to stay calm and give space and not mess further. Someone has to do that. 

After the break I returned. This time with different colors and pens. I sat calmly and decided to color green to highlight it as it’s the lighter of the two. But blue peeped with equal challenge. I decided to give it a power too. Used a stronger thicker blue. It looked messy and still the conflict showed. I then picked up a green color pencil and filled up the inside of green. Gave blue an outline and a shade.  Now both stood together yet showed their own forms and strength. Some places they were together behind each other and somewhere they both stood out. I felt calmer, sorted and more clean. 

I realized through this, that there will always be relationships that conflict constantly to gain power. Even if you try to walk away, they will try and drag you. It’s messy and so detach and strengthen your skills. Clean up your world so that you feel stronger and less messed up. The more the fight to gain, the messier it is. Instead focus on one thing and then even if things overlap yet both will stand out. The shading helped me to give strength to both colors hence making them emerge as separate identities yet overlap as well. It’s cleaner, beautiful and more settling. In life too, the more we conflict the messier it gets, instead focus on simplifying. Do not add to the mess. Each of us is an identity, conflicts only make us look ugly. Instead of we just focus on our strengths, hone our skills, work together to make it all so beautiful. We can all have our strong identities and still work together. This design was truly a revelation and a great mind activity to help me deal with my internal conflict....an answer from the Universe?....maybe! 

Take time to grow

 I bought this plant in spring this year. Flowers died before summer and the bulbs dried up. I didn’t have the heart to throw them and left them tucked in the corner.

 Suddenly I see little greens peep out from the dried mix of mud and I picked up the acorn that I had piled up to cover the mud. I see 3 shoots come out dying to see the light! What a beautiful sight. Despite no water and care...it stayed alive in hibernation. At the right time when it felt sure it can grow....it did! Nothing could force it to grow! It just grew...since it is time! So many thoughts in my mind. 

We force things, we fight for it, we give up, don’t take breaks and we burn out! We just need to wait instead in hibernation, keep alive our spirit and core to grow and let things evolve! Our time will come! We will grow, bloom and blossom. Don’t kill yourself if things don’t work out....wait...your time will come as everything as a reason, season and time to grow! Thank you for precious learning Mother Nature.

Path of positivity

Last few days I have been talking to mothers at that stage where they feel a lot of frustration. It’s been 5-6 months of continuous work which is intense and takes away a lot of their energy. What they thought would be natural is now all dependent on the work they have to do. The gap is visible between their kids and the rest, their expectations have risen after seeing the change and they are bashing themselves for what they did in the first few years of their kids. They reach out for validation of every kind, they vent, hurt, cry, empty out their worries and also clear doubts. It’s not easy to listen yet I know it’s important to hear them out. Once they cleanse their soul....I fill them with positivity, hope, strength and lots of strategies to deal with this tough journey. The world is tough and we need mothers to be stronger so that they can support their kids even more. These kids need to survive a world that seldom gives anything easily. Why would I do it...I have been through it! I fought those fears and tears...crying the nights and days alone...fearing for my child who had to enter into a noisy world. Any shoulder who held my tears...I cherished. Those days are not over...still have a long road to travel...but I know together we all can and we will. I still fight a tough journey with her...I learn everyday...I stay positive by looking at the road I have travelled...I pave my path and pull few mothers behind me....yes....together we can...and we will! Let’s build bridges and pave a path as we are together in this. 🍁🍁♥️

Strangers love

 Happiness is made of little things yet they can mean the world. Last 6 months have been intense to say the least! Started with 4-5 hours of calls from around the world...different time zones and languages. Connected to over 40 mothers with who I spent time listening to their deepest and darkest stories which related to their children...speech delay, behavior and even family issues. They opened their hearts and I heard each one closely. Few took 1-2 sessions and left, few hung on for few more, few I referred further as they need additional support but selected few hung on despite all the challenges I threw at them as they did see change and were ready to make it happen no matter what. What started as intense difficult sessions where they did develop fear of my push...today has changed to happy conversations. Yday one such mom called up...she said just like that...and took a video call and chatted with me. Her dimpled face showed her happiness. The child comes now and greets me. I see pride and contentment on her face. The other sends me videos and photos of her life now. These don’t need to be shared as they are personal but somewhere they feel I think I was there through their darkest time holding their hands and not letting go...knew their innermost fears and pain and can now be part of their happy times! I feel I have done my job and paid a tribute to my mentor Alaka ma’am but to them it’s a life changing experience. It’s gratifying and life changing for me too. Being a part of strangers who I may never meet...karma? I have always believed in supporting others without intention of personal gain...do the good and let go. They owe me nothing...but it’s great to see the love of strangers who suddenly become dear due to events in life. At times even our closest associations don’t see the good intentions but take advantage and move on. I am slowly realizing the love of many strangers (who I may never meet) on social media is an anchor in my life! Grateful for this experience as they are adding richness to my life. Grateful to these strangers! 🍀🍀

Roses and tears

 ♥️ROSES AND TEARS 

A beautiful and blessed life 

She had it all they say 

Pearls and roses everywhere 

The fate never went astray. 

Like a blossom she bloomed 

When love promised the skies 

She radiated her love and beauty 

And trusted all the rosy lies. 

When all the honey was taken 

Boredom took over emotions 

He left without looking back 

She was left with questions. 

Her world came down crashing 

Eyes just stopped smiling 

Tears filled up with pain 

Yet she needed to keep sailing. 

She lives a dual life now 

To the world she is just flying 

Yet at the heart of her pink rose 

She just hides and keeps crying. 

Life is such a weird connection 

Dual emotions we live unintentional 

                          Pretending all is just so perfect 

                             Roses and tears run parallel.